The words Gracefully Broken means so much to me. I remember listening to this song by Tasha Cobbs Leonard and felt my heart just break into pieces. I felt seen. I felt broken. I felt grace. I knew through those words that God saw me. He saw fit to break me with grace to prepare me for what was to come.
Through this journey of entrepreneurship, I didn’t have a mentor. I didn’t have resources. I didn’t have access. What you see today, is what I built with blood, sweat and constant tears. It was difficult for me to believe in something when I didn’t believe in myself. Now that was a hard pill to swallow. I’ve unlocked the dark parts of my life. My feeling of unworthiness because of the main people in my life not displaying those attributes.
I sit and contemplate on the struggles. Every time, God was right there. Holding me up. As his word states in Psalm 27:10 “Though my father and mother forsake me, the lord will receive me”. I now see, he received me a long time ago. It took me a while to see it.
My life was not a fairytale. To this day, a little part of me wishes it was different. But a big part of me does not. I have finally found my voice. I have finally found my sweet spot in writing. I have finally let go of the strongholds of hiding my scars to save the people who inflicted them.
I remember telling friends “If someone wanted you not to share a story, they should’ve written it differently” yet I didn’t practice those sentiments at all. Here I am giving the best spoken advise in the world but too afraid to do the same. Poor little OLD me.
Every day I do things afraid. Even ride the train. I suffer from PTSD and am fully aware of my triggers. I feel like I give myself exposure therapy every day. What this teaches me is I’m not died. I’ve developed endurance and resilience. Now my tomorrows aren’t harder than the day before. I continue to FEAR FORWARD.
I was GRACEFULLY BROKEN. God saw fit for me to be. I thank him for the path he has opened for me presently. I am no longer silenced. I am no longer afraid. I am emboldened and empowered. I am me. I am Rosita. I am a mother, student, friend, daughter, girlfriend, businesswoman, employee, and a strong survivor. This is who you are supporting. Earthbyroro is love. Made with Love because all I can give to everyone is love.
Thank you for supporting a dream.